ruffledheart

Darr hai in gardishon me kalam ki siyaahi na sookh jae kahin.. Yahan se mud ke nayi naa la pae to afsos badh jaega..

Bhula ke us bigde-dhundle tasavvur ko chala hun ab us shaksiyat ki taraf, jise mujhse pehle mere haal ka ehsaas ho jae..

For you never came up to put any bandage to it..  And how could you? You are the one who brought it to raze.. My heart and soul had been put under several knives and you are the one for its bleeding. I wish I could revert back to you the same way. Thrash you with the worst of all. I wish to get you one platter of delicacies of immense pain. And bound you to have it. Where the pain rises with every bite that you eat. A platter that doubles up its delicacies the moment you are about to finish them. The harder it is to finish, the double it throws on you. And you get ni choice. I want you to scream in pain. Pain of hurt,  separation, longing, crave.. When I stand at a distance and you beckon,  and I don't seem bothered by your call. When you cry loud and I don't seem to hear any noise. Cry hard,  as hard as you wanted to hold me the other time. Scream the loudest,  as loud as you shrieked on me to admit my emotions to you the other time. Long now..  Lo...

😁 the last of replies was hilarious.. 4:45 in the morning with a cup of tea and just me, i went through shuffling at fb's eatlo community and saw a post by a lady of her dinner, which said,  Egg Noodles 🍜 Yeah... 🙄 Remember..? No..? Alliance Francais.. Cafeteria.. ☺️ Sometimes,  I feel it's all gone; long gone away.. The time, the scenario changed at a fast pace. And it would never be at that end. But,  what bewilders me is that memories are never vague. Their impressions never fade. The tinge of hues that they render,  remains the same..  The colors never seem to lighten, infact, the ink gets darken with the passage of time. How..? What an amazing expression the creator had come up with..  ☺️ One never forgets anything that had had ever happened to them.. Good,  bad,  ugly. The brains are supposed to function the particular way, as instructed by the creator. It is only that we get used ...

Baat us daur ki hai jab tum-hum sath hue.. Gulabi sehar huin aur hum bhi gule-gulzar hue.. Samay ki karvat se aisa hua sama.. Gulabo ke rang ude aur chaman bikhare uzaad hue

It got bruised long back when I first met you. I thought it would all be hunky dory. But..  To no one's big eyes expression.. You and I never shared anything relatable,  yet we found solace in each other's company sharing our joys,  sorrows,  fears of present that lead to our future; The studies that kept us busy, the degrees that kept us awake.. And for what not. More from the emotions that held us together,  the bond of friendship established itself so strong and we hadn't even had a glimpse of it. It was Intimidating at times to ask you to be on phone. There were pleadings from my end which led only to bickering and nothing else. Pleads to speak over the call and bickering to 'Only' meet - up and no talks. It had always been difficult but you know what was cumbersome.. to get you back on the right note. You never seemed bothered much about anything that troubled me extensively. Nothing could clutch your heart. None of the sentiments could ever turn you ...

Sigh! Of relief! How to express  gratitude to the Almighty for soothing me when I am low. Sending me here is what He does then.. 😊 Shukriya,  Sarkar! Hawaiyen  badal gayi hain.. Isliye Bheed me takra jana bhi inaayat  hogi.. ☺️